... that's what my mom said, or something like it, a few years ago.
An hour in Gilead is exhausting for this stoic guy. An hour has passed and I repeat what I had said 20 minutes earlier, when I had imagined my six year old self driving home in deep silence...
Why am I doing this?
My dad says... We don't want you to get another infection.
I waited 39 years to hear those words. Finally in my imagination they arrive. Finally I break the silence.
To my same question, my guide to healing says... You desire wholeness.
A fascinating look inside the Obama campaign gets me half way home... Not quite do anything to win, but the man is a politician and that said they have one goal--- win. However, when he was being attacked for saying he would talk to our enemies, his aides began writing a memo to back him away from his comment. He told them to stop and charged them to take a higher road... convince people it is the right thing to do.
Talk to our enemies... Talk to our demons.
I stop at a WAWA and resist the junk food. I am biting into a banana as I run into a co-worker outside the store. A quick hello and I am back in the car in search of soothing, enough news.
It comes randomly through my iPod. A tune from the only CD which I have ever bought, which I had owned in another format.The vinyl version goes back to a music exploration class in college 23 years ago: Blues on Bach by The Modern Jazz Quartet.
It took me a long time to find a place where you can hear it, and so I invite you to listen to some jazz inspired by Bach.
I was so ready to stop before the hour ended ... but the guide takes me deeper and deeper, then as she did twice before, I am invited to bring Jesus into it.
week 1. Jesus rips at the "bubble of pressure."
week 2. Jesus lifts the burden of being overwhelmed and while offering no reassurances except that he will walk with me... and something about a yoke.
week 3 Jesus takes my hand and my dad's hand and we form a triangle. He says ... Peace Be With You.
all that Jesuit training in imaginative prayer has led to this place.